Why I’m kind of pathetic

I’m a 37-year-old woman with a relatively new family — a new stepmom and her 18-year-old son. And I really want to be considered “cook” by the 18-year-old, which is dumb in and of itself, but the ways this desire manifests are even dumber. Like, I don’t want to go to go to bed too early so he won’t think I’m an old tired lady. And when he said something like, “Oh, mom’s put you to work, too” when I was mowing the lawn, I said ” Well, I volunteered, but now I’m sorry I did,” which totally wasn’t true but was total teenage snarking. I hope I grow up in the next day or so.